Nak cakap sikit je

Hai salam. Apa khabar semua?

Sudah lama rasanya tidak berkunjung ke sini dan menaip apa sahaja yang aku nak. Well, tak juga. Kena berlapik juga. Benda sekarang kalau kita letak kat memana media sosial, boleh viral kalau tersilap langkah. So.. that's why aku ada dua blog.

Satu private. Satu public.

Tapi yang private tu dah lama bersarang aku rasa. Sebab lately ni aku banyak taip dalam email je apa yang aku rasa either negative or positive yang aku rasa tak perlu dikongsikan pada orang lain, cukuplah sekadar aku seorang je baca. So email je lah. Email pada siapa pulak kan? Email pada diri sendiri so bila-bila masa aku rasa aku nak baca, aku just buka email aku. Bahaya juga lah kot-kot lupa nak logout kan. Tapi aku jenis memang logout everytime buka email kat pc memana lagi2 kat office. So tak menjadi kebimbangan sangat.

Ok nak cerita apa ni. Anak aku dua-dua dah membesar. Sorang bakal turns 2 year old dalam masa..seminggu lagi. Sorang lagi dah 8 bulan. Memang cepat masa berlalu. Jap lagi pada akhiran pos ni aku attach gambar diorang yang latest.

Aku sebenarnya dah tak ada idea nak buat intro panjang-panjang ni so kita straight to the point je lah ok. Ok menjadi seorang ibubapa yang perfect bukan mudah. I repeat ok, BUKAN mudah. Seringkali kita mendengar di kaca televisyen, dada akhbar tentang pengasuh-pengasuh atau cikgu di sekolah cubit budak lah, belasah budak lah, dera bayi lah, dan rata-rata netizen yang mengutuk tu ibubapa bukan?

Tapi cuba bayangkan kalau kita jaga anak orang lain? Adakah kita MEMANG PASTI SEPASTINYA yang kita akan ada level atau tahap kesabaran yang tinggi? Dahlah bukan anak kita. Kita kena cuci berak dia, kena layan dia, kena suap dia, kena dukung dia, kena pujuk dia, kena belai dia. Penat tau. Ha point aku kat sini kan bukan nak defend pengasuh-pengasuh, memang aku benci sangat menatang2 ni kalau dera bayi ke budak, tapi aku nak kita sebagai ibubapa yg mencaci, mengutuk, memaki kat komen2 video viral apsal pengasuh ni muhasabah diri balik. Jangan terlalu terbawa-bawa diri memaki kat ruang komen tu. Kita sendiri tak tahu nasib kita dan anak kita. Komen sikit-sikit dahlah. Akupun tak suka juga tengok video macam tu, sedihkan bila tengok budak yang innocent yang taktahu apa-apa kena bantai mcm tu skali. Macam oi hanat, kau tak suka budak, takyah kerja pengasuh lah. Ha macam tu.

Tapi cuba for once, kita duduk dengan tenang termenung sekejap pikir kalau kita kat tempat pengasuh tu jaga anak orang? Belum tentu bagus woih.

Ha tu je lah nak cakap.

Pastu bagi orang yang forward2 video baling2 bayi tu, aku harap malam ni dia tidur dengan tenang lah.

Wslm.

6 days to go!

My babies share the same birthday! But not the month though, just the date. Sofea's on September 5th while Laudya's on December 5th. So it's pretty easier for me to remember theirs, just remember the 5. lol

Anyways the title says it all. 6 days to go until Laudya turns 4 month and Sofea turns 1 year and 7 month! I wonder where is the time going so fast.

Anyway these are their latest pics:-

Sekarang kehidupan lebih teratur. Alhamdulillah ada hikmah dapat dua anak dalam masa yang terdekat ni. Syukur sangat-sangat. Semoga anak-anak mummy membesar menjadi anak yang solehah, bijak, sihat walfiat dan paling penting taat pada Allah. Amin ya rabbal Al-amin...

Love you Sofea & Laudya 

I’m a mummy of two beautiful girls!

So today genaplah 10 days bersalin. And I am so excited cause it’s my turn to name the baby! Hahahha although ny husband punya reaction the first time I told him the baby’s name, was like nahhh.. blerghhh. But finally I got the chance to name my baby. Ladies and gentlemen.. meet my second baby..

 Keisha Laudya ❤️

She was born weighed 3.26kg and through normal delivery. I am so relieved & grateful. I get to experience both ways of labor.. c-section & normal delivery. 

Now I am in KK, just landed last night and starting my first day with Fadza Beauty Care for my urut pantang and all. My husband is here with me and I am grateful for him as well, always there beside me, helping whatever I need. Pasal pee & poopoo jangan ckp lah. Pedih nak mampussss. But it’s okay.. no pain no gain. Gitchew.

And Sofea? Her first reaction to her baby sister was clueless. I asked her where’s adik, and she still keep pointing on my belly and once, she pulled up my husband’s shirt when my hubs asked her where’s adik.. so funny la Sofea. Your adik already came out from mummy’s belly😂

More pictures coming!

My baby big already. And so does my belly -.-

Well hello there again. After so long.

It's unquestionable that it has been ages since the last time I blog. The first time I started creating this blog is to make a diary about my pregnancy journey and how my baby Sofea started to grown up. Being a busy-bee with my work, house chores, Sofea, craps, I've got no time to write (I know it's a lame excuse but for real, I felt like I'm not interested to write anything at all). After a while I even almost forgotten this blog's existence. 

Suddenly like remembering a dusty vintage box sitting in the corner of the attic, I remembered this blog. When I opened it, as I saw pics of Sofea when she's like a day born, 8 month and everything, I thought, omg, this is too long. I have to write something. And here I am, again. Writing from the bottom of heart about my precious life being a mother to a lovely baby girl, Khayla Sofea. 

So, today is October 26th, so Sofea's age has reached...wait let me..

A year, 1 month and 21 days!

Another 9 days before a year 2 month :)))

Here goes the pics of her that I took recently:-

She can walk already despite the unstability (still learning tho) and she eats whatever we can give to her. However, she loathed drinking plain water. Wonder where does that comes from (:p) 

And me? I'm already 35 weeks pregnant. My tummy is like a ticking bomb, waiting to explode whenever now. I know it's seems like too early but seriously tho, besar nak mampus perut aku. Some said that it is because I have a tiny small petite body. I was about halfway through my maggi goreng telur mata when my colleague stopped to admire my belly. 

 "You must be having a boy." she said. 

 I told her, I wasn't. It is a girl. Great! She can be a twin to Sofea! 

I seriously cannot wait. 

With my big enormous gigantic belly, I admit, it's kinda hard sometimes (most of the times) to hold Sofea, to hug her or having her around me. Cause I keep having this belly cramp so whenever Sofea buat perangai like taknak kena dukung, merengek and everything, I get tired and upset. So I tend to ignore her most of the times, let her babah took care of her temporarily while waiting for me to calm down and hold Sofea back. Sometimes I got so kesian with Sofea, cause I can't give full attention to her since I've always have this terrible headache, vomiting (sometimes) and backache. So selalunya babah dia yang akan jaga dia. Despite all that, I'm really grateful and thankful for my husband around. Can't imagine myself without him all by myself. Huhuhuhuhuh. So, that's all the update for today. 

With this post also, I attach a video of Sofea. This was at her birthday party (family members) back in Putatan

LOOK HOW BIG YOU ARE!

wow lama gila tak update.
last time update, Sofea baru sehari LOL.

and now tau dah berapa umur si kecik tu? 8 month and 14 days.

Dah pandai meniarap, merangkak, berjalan (tiarap), bergolek-golek, pegang benda masuk dlm mulut, cakap bababababa, main airliur dia, and pandai berdiri (kena pegang atau hold on to something).

and dah makan dah pun.

and dah buat passport sofea jugak! weeeee.

tu je lah kot nak update. and i'm 11weeks pregnant. OKBAI

p/s: mual tak sudah. 

A letter to my baby girl

Assalammualaikum dear, 

Yeap this is your mommy. I just created an email account for you. Well, not just for you, but for us as well, babah & mommy to update or tell story or whatever things that we want to let you know, we will send to you via this email.

So you were born yesterday. Mommy went through a Ceasarian operation because you were so big (weigh 3.15kg) and I have a tiny butt. Mommy couldnt make it through if it wasnt because of babah. Babah dah sokong mommy macam-macam from the contraction to your birth. Anywho, mommy sangat sangat happy when you were born sayang.. I couldnt be so much happier than seeing my baby girl whom I had carried for 8month 2 weeks. Mommy had a few stretch marks (actually a lot) but then thinking and imagining you will be born and will stay beside me, semua tu mommy dah tak peduli. Stretch mark ke parut ke, yg penting I get to meet you my lovely Sofea.. Your name, babah yg pilih. Sebab dia nak rhymes lah konon-konon dgn nama dia.. Memula mommy tak setuju jugak sebab nak juga nama yg mommy pilih tapi pikir-pikir balik, sedap juga nama Kayla Sofea tu. Mommy were thinking about Aurora lah Adriana lah. Haha but anyway, yg penting Sofea selamat dilahirkan. And I'm a very thankful mom. Your babah also. I can see from his eyes, dia happy sangat. Masa babah nampak Sofea kena lahirkan pun babah sebak tau. 

Esok mommy dah discharge dari hospital.. Tadi babah tolong mommy bangun, berjalan.. Sebab parut dari operation tu still sakit lagi but Alhamdulillah now dah ok dah sikit-sikit. Tak sabar nak bawa balik rumah Sofea. Grandma pun rajin datang hospital, tolong mommy, masakkan mommy.. Grandma syg Sofea tau. Cucu pertama kan. Grandpa ada kat Indonesia sekarang, dia tak dapat tengok. Tapi soon he will be back. Dia pun tak sabar tu nak jumpa Sofea.. Mudah mudahan Sofea membesar jadi good girl.. Anak yg solehah and make us mommy & babah proud of you.

Love,
Mommy


Sent from my iPhone

38 weeks journey in becoming a mom

Now that I'm 38 weeks already, I can feel a great amount of pressure (pain) all over my stomach especially below the belly button and an inch from my chest (practically all over). When I wake up every morning and try to get up from the bed, imagine a turtle being knocked upside down and tries to stand on his feet back. The struggle is real..

Ada one time tu, i was watching the television with my both legs on the couch (yup thats the right way to watch the tv) and i feel something is not right on my right side of stomach and when i touched the area, i can feel the baby was showing itself more on the right side than the left side. I dont know, maybe its the head or toes, but it was pretty sharp i felt it and it stayed there for about 4-5 seconds before getting back to the normal position. But it did got me psych though feeling something unique and miracle inside my body. And the fact that i'm the only one that can feel the movement, not anyone else.

Talking bout my birthday this year, my husband gave me a surprise of him getting back to kk without telling me and he lied to me saying he went out with his colleague that night when actually he already stepped his foot on KK that night! Grrrr i was really shocked and i swear i did not see that coming. But i was so happy seeing his face when he entered the house and kiss me hug me and asking if the baby is okay.. Made my night though. Truly is a blessing..

About the business, it's kinda slow these days cause i am not be able to go to post office often compared to before as my stomach has already become an enormously huge round shape of ball. There are not many jubah or cloth that i am able to wear at this time. Jubah, there is. But it's so tight it's killing me. I'd rather wear kain batik at home. But surprisingly, so rajin to mekap. Hahahahhahaha even staying at home only (went out for a swing swing only tepi pantai). Banyak dengar surah yusuf & maryam. I heard they're good for the baby inside. And i drink a lot of susu kambing. Yep it tastes like hot chocolate though except it's not that sweet but guess what, i like it less sweet.

Cant wait to deliver this baby! Mommy is soooooo excited to meet you lil pumpkin! Mom can't wait to hug you, kiss you, get you the prettiest dresses and cutest headbands.. Mom cant wait to hold you my dear little one. Mudah mudahan anak mommy jadi anak yg solehah. Amin ya rabb.. Love you mommy's lil pump :*